IF you have been genuinely born again and yet are not presently seeking the LORD with a whole heart, in His Word and prayer daily, He is not your “first love” – You have backslid (Revelation 2:4-5). You are not abiding/remaining in Christ and will be cast into the fires of eternal damnation (Jn 15:16). You’ve allowed the “cares of this world” to choke out His Word and have fallen away (Mark 4:17-19, etc.).